Breathing in hope. on Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Hold me by SimpleOona @deviantart
Honestly, I don't have a plan for life, I don't have it figured out like everyone else, I don't know what I want to do, who I want to become, what I want to turn myself into. I'm confused, life isn't suppose to be this hard. Well maybe that's partially my fault, if you haven't noticed by now I'm a follower never ever am I the leader. I'm just too scared, too weak, to lead. I'm scared because what if I fail them as a leader? What happens from there? The answers are too hard and painful to be said. I'm a weak person, I can't even make myself happy, so, how can I lead other people? And make them happy?
Why can't I have happiness?
Everything and everyone in life, they can all make me happy, I know they can, but still, the question remains. Why can't I be happy? Am I being too selfish? What am I lacking in order to achieve this feeling, this heavenly feeling as what they call happiness. Will I ever achieve this so called "happiness"? Or will I just drown in my shadow.
I need someone to ask me what's wrong,
I need someone to say everything is going to be alright,
I need someone to know me better than I do,
I need someone.